To Everything There Is A Season

On the way to the Transient Services Office today, I couldn't help but think about all the changes that are happening in my life.  I also couldn't help but think of my "past life".  I was always busy being "Molly Mormon" and being appropriate and worrying about how things looked and what I wasn't getting "fed" and so on and so on.  You women know the drill.  It took me a long, long time to figure out that "to everything there is a season".  I wanted to be everything to everyone all at the same time.  I really thought it was possible to "have it all and do it all". 

It took some serious experience to teach me what a myth that thought process was.  Hind sight is 20/20 is an appropriate thought in that perspective.  After I had worn myself out in many ways and ended up in the hospital, a long retraining process began. 

In Tai Chi yesterday, we got into a conversation about doors opening and closing, you know the one, when one door closes, another door opens.  I used to think that was a bunch of bologne until Tai Chi and the real application of the gospel taught me differently.  It really is true.  We are constantly "reinventing" ourselves and if we choose to see it, the law of attraction goes to work in our lives and we become something new.  We become the person for the season.

My new season is my favorite season.  It will be fall in New Zealand when we get there.  That has always been my favorite of the 4 seasons.  The air is crisp and mellow, the colors are bright and amazing, there is a wonderful harvest of many beautiful and delicious things, the earth is preparing for winter and the long rest she gets to take.  I want to be crisp and mellow, bright and amazing as I enter this "new season" of my life.  My dad used to say, when you asked him which part of his life was the best part, "The one I'm in!"  I want this to be an awesome season of my life but I am the only one that can make it that way.  I'm ready to join in the harvest.  No I am not ready for the "long rest" yet but I'm going to try to keep on reinventing until that happens.

In re-evaluating my life, I have thought about all the things I have done, helping with the deaf and all their many issues, learning sign language, being a "roady" mom with my rockin' daughter and the bands, getting a martial arts black belt at 51 and then going on to get 2nd and 3rd dan belts as well, becoming a Tai Chi teacher,working in the temple and at the Missionary Training Center and the Transient Services Office.  I have raised a beautiful family, all of whom I am proud.  They are my most amazing gift but it took me all these years to see that the way I view it now.

I had a season for raising a family and I think in spite of my shortcomings, I did it well.  They are all productive, important parts of society with the desires in their heart to make this earth a better place in some way than when they arrived here.  I had a season for growing myself, graduating college, getting other honors of sorts and doing all sorts of things I never saw myself doing.  Now it is my season for going with my husband to a far away place and helping others fulfill the seasons of their lives.  Fall is coming and it is my favorite season.