Sunday, May 13, 2012

To My Children on Mother's Day

When I married your dad 42+ years ago, to be honest, you were the last thing on my mind.  I was kind of naive and just believed whatever should happen, would happen and so our little family began.  You know what!  Looking back, what was supposed to happen, did happen.  Our first born, you Heather, came along just 9 months after we married.  You Jason, were born just a year later.  We had to wait 4years to get Jamie and then we lost her too quickly.  Jenny came along soon after that, I believe out of her choice to help us.  After all the trauma, there was a big question!  Should we, could we, have another child but I knew there was another one to come and so we took that blind leap into the unknown and you Micah were born.

Dad and I were just talking this morning about which child we would choose to do without.  Of course, the answer was easy.  None!  Each of you has added an amazing dimension to our lives and we would never choose to do without any one of you.  We would do it all again, in spite of all the problems we had getting you here, in spite of some of the heartache and pain.  Why?  Because you are literally all we have in this life.  You are part of our family and our most precious relationships.  You are each different and wonderful in your own ways.  There are things we cherish about each of you.  I even have names for you that are descriptions of my feelings about you.  They are private and special and maybe some day I will share them with you.  You are the joy in my life.  Nothing else I do compares to the feelings I have about you, my children.

All of you have one thing in common that is very important to me.  That thing is your caring, giving hearts and your energy to help others become better and to try in your own way to make this world a better place.  I wanted to say this at our "farewell" but I would have to have choked it out through the emotion.  I see so much in each of you that makes me proud to be your mom and grateful that even though it was hard, I decided to have each of you.  You are amazing, wonderful human beings.  Thanks for choosing to come here and let me be your mom.  It is a wonderful journey we share and I am looking forward to many more adventures with you in this life.  I love you bigger than the sky!  I want you to know that if I did not believe that I was doing the right thing in going on this mission, I would never leave you, my family, my most precious gift!